Help for difficulty in relationships ?

It is never too late- you can change the rest of your life and have a much happier future. Why do you think that therapy takes too long? I'm afraid with the kind of trauma you have experienced there is no "quick fix", it will take time, and it will be hard, but it will also be worth it. Especially if you really love this guy. If you are serious about having a turn around, please reconsider therapy- you should be able to get a referral to a therapist that will suit your budget so its really not a problem. This is your life you're talking about, how could you not invest a little time and money?